Depression feels like your in an empty dark room staring at a white screen. I haven't been this depressed in months. My mouths all dry and my eyes are teary, but I can't seem to cry. Every freaking time I open my heart up, I get bashed down. By everyone! God I haven't felt so alone in a long time. It's like.... I've finally snapped. I've held it in as long as I could and its come pouring out everywhere. I don't know what to say to anyone anymore. I mean, I feel like dieing but when I say that, people get pissed at me. I'm so sick of being in pain. I can't fucking stand it anymore! I tell people i care about them, I try to be honest and.... always rejection! No one will take a chance with me, no one at all! I mean come on, what am I? Some kind of freak! Uh yea. So I can't take the whole freaking, "you're a really cool person but..." again. Stupid Brett! What the fuck! I haven't even seen him in 5 months. I'm gonna go hide under my rock now, bye.
P.S. I just want to be held by someone and loved, I really do ^, .0